I started journaling at the age of 10 and discovered it was a good way for me to talk to God and escape the pains and frustrations of life.  Always full of questions and thoughts, I loved how the words would flow through my pen and onto the paper. It helped me sort through so many confusing thoughts.

Journaling also helped me process my journey as a Believer in Jesus.  

I grew up as the child of a pastor, and I lived my life trying to please my family, the church, and God. I was the poster child of what a “good Christian girl” looked like yet I never seemed to quite measure up. Feeling like I was a constant disappointment to those around, I truly believed I didn’t measure up in the eyes of God.


As a little girl, I loved to daydream about my future; a happy life as a wife and mother. However, my life didn’t turn out the way I imagined. I supposed it doesn’t for most people. In the midst of my stumbles and falls, I discovered a God who loved me more than I realized. And after several painful decades, I finally learned a lesson in GRACE that I never allowed myself to receive previously.

This blog is for those who have wondered:

  • If I believe in Jesus, why am I so miserable?
  • Is God always disappointed in me?
  • What does it mean to live FREE?
  • Why do Christians act they way they do.  
  • Why can they be so mean and judgmental?
  • What is so great about God anyway?
  • How does the Bible describe the Father and Jesus – outside of church tradition.
  • Is it possible that I’ve been wrong in my thinking and beliefs?

I hope that many who do read this blog will humble themselves and consider that maybe many of us missed the whole point of the gospel.

The reality is, for many  “American Christians” we don’t truly understand what Christ did on the cross, and we hang on to self-righteousness in the name of Jesus because it makes us feel better than everyone else.

 As a result, we end up pointing our fingers and condemning everyone around us.

We have either forgotten or not understood that it is God’s kindness that leads to repentance. Somehow we have become afraid of grace, erroneously believing that the message of grace gives us an excuse to sin. However, truly understanding and preaching the truth of His grace doesn’t lead people to more sin, but leads them into righteousness.


These posts are real, honest, and thought-provoking.  I find that often, when I am writing, God talks to me through my pen. It’s a very intimate and personal time with my God, who I love more than life.

My prayer is that your eyes (and mine) will be opened and our hearts understand His truth and His ways so that we may start LIVING FREE through the Holy Spirit and enjoy the many blessings, promises, authority, and power Christ died (and lives now!) for us to have.